Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Its just hard when you have had control of your own life for so long, then you agree to submit to someone.
but im learning..
its just hard when i REALLY REALLY want my way. i just see red.
so needless to say i have gotten about 2 OR 3 more spankings since i last journaled.
i'm loosing count.
trust me, they are ALL well deserved. my tongue is set on fire by hell itself.
but again,
im learning..
how was i spanked? i think twice with the belt and once with the hand..
it all hurts.. i cry sometimes and sometimes i don't.
i have this thing about thinking that life should be perfectly fair.
and that everyone should be equal and ... if you think about it, i feel like
everyone should be able to hurt everyone the same. if you hurt me, i should be able to hurt you. but...
life is not fair..
when your boss fires you, you are really hurt, that doesnt mean you can kill em'.
so..
i guess life isnt fair.
i guess things wouldnt work right if everyone had a headship mentality,
somebody has to take the low road..
but im learning..
its just hard when i REALLY REALLY want my way. i just see red.
so needless to say i have gotten about 2 OR 3 more spankings since i last journaled.
i'm loosing count.
trust me, they are ALL well deserved. my tongue is set on fire by hell itself.
but again,
im learning..
how was i spanked? i think twice with the belt and once with the hand..
it all hurts.. i cry sometimes and sometimes i don't.
i have this thing about thinking that life should be perfectly fair.
and that everyone should be equal and ... if you think about it, i feel like
everyone should be able to hurt everyone the same. if you hurt me, i should be able to hurt you. but...
life is not fair..
when your boss fires you, you are really hurt, that doesnt mean you can kill em'.
so..
i guess life isnt fair.
i guess things wouldnt work right if everyone had a headship mentality,
somebody has to take the low road..
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