daughter of sarah 1peter 3.6

what happened. yes it has been 6 months..and guess what i am still a BITCH.go figure, i think my H gave up on me for a while because he stopped trying.I guess im a harder case than expected. but anyway, now that i have gotten worse,i guess he is going to try again, i dont know. really i dont care right now.yes i have fallen into that mode. but im going to start journaling again. the other day i disrespected my H and i know i did. he was on fire and were spewing out all these threats about a spanking when we got home. I was scared as a deer looking into a hummer's headlight. I was shaking on the inside, I was reevaluating everything I did and was swearing to myself i would never ever do what i did again. i was remorseful, humbled, and the like, but then .... he just went to sleep, he didnt follow through...as scared as i was, why did that bother me?then it all went away, i got angry because i didnt feel like he even care enough to deal with the situation as he had said. to make it worse, he threatened again, went to sleep again a day later.. i was happy because i wouldnt have to hurt, but then again i wasnt happy.